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Carpe the Hell Out of Your Diem

In Church by Caris Adel22 Comments

  I was really depressed Saturday night.  I talked to myself like you shouldn’t talk to people. This is a battle, a war. And the casualties could be your hearts and souls. And then I had a glass of wine, and I got pissed.  I got a baseball bat and I broke some wine glasses that had some symbolism to …

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Domesticating God

In Church by Caris Adel1 Comment

I thrive on learning.  Memorizing knowledge, thinking and over-thinking is how my brain runs.  So of course, I excelled as an evangelical.  I won gold stars and awards at VBS for memorizing verses.  At the Baptist summer camp I went to, every 40 verses memorized meant you could throw a pie at a counselor’s face.  And I threw a lot …

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A Resurrected Faith

In Church by Caris Adel5 Comments

  I have become like one who has no strength, lost among the dead. Will your loving-kindness be declared in the grave? Will your wonders be known in the dark?   Sometimes you don’t know how close to death you were until you’ve been pulled out of the grave.  I’ve spent a long time in the darkness, working out my …

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Did I Think About Staying?

In Church by Caris Adel13 Comments

give me the heart of an archeologist, that I may dig until I prove that I exist. a subterranean cathedral in my midst, where echoes come to rest. where echoes come to rest. is this where echoes come to rest? -Sleeping At Last   A year ago I said leaving Evangelicalism probably wasn’t the answer for me.  I thought there …