I’m becoming a little tired of the responses to that RHE article that just dismiss her points as being caused by being a spoiled, entitled millennial.
Because you know what? We aren’t.
Leaving, partially leaving, or considering leaving this culture that we grew up in is painful. It feels like a slow amputation, and you know that even if you leave, you will feel the absence.
It is not something I want to do or am doing lightly. I am not having a hissy fit and just looking for something to make me happy. For God’s sake, I’m an INFJ. I’m rarely happy! I thrive in tension and analysis and questioning.
I don’t mind staying in a place where I am constantly wrestling. But I need someone on the mat with me.
I am leaving evangelicalism because my tensions are not welcome. What I have to say is not wanted. I’m left on the mat, alone. If that makes me spoiled, so be it.
If not wanting to be told from the pulpit that the strength of my relationship with God is provable by how much I disbelieve evolution makes me entitled, then fine. I’m entitled.
If it is entitlement to want to discuss theological disagreements and not be told I don’t believe the Bible, then fine. I’m entitled.
If it’s entitlement to get tired of churches and movements just sitting around and praying a prophetic word to make your life better, to be frustrated that the goal is just to pray for revival, pray for our nation’s healing, pray for God to show up, then fine, I’m entitled.
If being incredibly annoyed that I can’t even send my kids to VBS without them coming home with tracts makes me entitled, then color me spoiled.
If voicing my support for gay rights means people tell me they are praying for me, then I’m out! If that means I’m a spoiled member of the ME generation, then so. be. it.
I am tired of having to hide what I believe in a culture that prides itself on being welcoming, accepting, and real. When the tagline on so many churches is ‘come as you are’ but they don’t really mean it, I’m done.
If wanting to find a group of people who follow Jesus the way I feel him calling me to follow makes me entitled, then fine. I guess I’m just entitled.
I shouldn’t have to continue making a list to justify why I am slowly making my way out of evangelicalism.
Who exactly am I having to prove my reasons to? To people who don’t want to engage while I’m still here?
When I see how my church tradition, and even my specific churches, treats people like Rob Bell or RHE, when I know the shitstorm that will ensue come November and Jesus Feminist hits the stands – why would I want to open myself up to the same thing?
I don’t need the blessing of the evangelical complex to leave. I don’t need to prove my love for Jesus or explain that I understand that I can’t leave the Body.
I am not leaving the culture that I know because I am seeking happiness. I am leaving it because if I stay, I will become even more bitter, cynical, and lonely.
If that makes me entitled, then fine.
Call me entitled.
When the continued response by people is dismissal of the thoughts in the article, that just adds to the alienation and pushes me out the door even faster.
If that means I’m entitled, well, I just don’t care anymore.